simply awesome!

 Cheesy Grin!  I have been going through some amazing life transformations lately.  I have been attending these life conferences called Landmark Education.  Have you heard of them?  Google them! Find them in your city and attend.  It has been worth every pinched penny I have paid! 

 For example, I realized that some of the things that I am really good at:  being loyal, funny and intuitive, have a certain cost to my happiness. In other words, they have served as such a driving force that I almost don't have a choice to be any different.  I know that those sentence read funny and part of that is the language of Landmark.  The other part is that you would think that something you are good at is always positive:  I am suggesting that I was feeling trapped in that identity.  Thus, it has been freeing to realize I don't have to BE any way.  I can just BE. 

I had a day with a simple outfit that just felt awesome!  It is like the earrings, the lace top and the comfort of it all just worked out to make me feel great!  Oddly, because I hardly wear a "designer" outfit, all the clothes are from Lane Bryant.  The earrings are from a clearance at Wal-mart. 

outfit 50--winter still.....

today i wanted to stay in my pajamas:  really badly!  so i opted for a comfortable pant and sweater combo instead!  this sweater was $1 at the savers monday colored tag sale!  yipee! 

my sister posed a question to me that has gotten me thinking, can i imagine feeling good all the time?  i have several ailments (fibromyalgia, migraines, ibs, social anxiety) that prohibit me from saying phrases like "i feel awesome!"  mostly i end up saying "i don't feel too bad".  what i would do if i felt good all the time?  would i DO or BE much different?   

i dream of swimming with the dolphins and moving as fast as they do, as free as they seem and as effortlessly as they swim.  it is the only time i imagine those phrases of FREEDOM, MOVEMENT, EFFORTLESSLY, WEIGHTLESSNESS.  the implication being pain free, but not as important. 

wish i could be wearing the sandals all day long at school, they are much cuter than the flats:)

black sweater--mountain lake--$1

beige pants--lane bryant--$40ish

black sandals--dansko--$114ish

black flats--terrasoles, sams club--$40ish

pearl necklace--gift from Melissa, sister

pearl brooch--grandma linda

bling earrings--don't remember

outfit 48--red, brown and khaki

this is what i wear when it seems like a "jeans and t-shirt" day at school where denim is not allowed.  comfortable, easy with a pop of color:)

brown shirt--lane bryant

red tank with sparklies--lane bryant

beige pants--lane bryant

red mary jane shoes--dansko

outfit 35--i love pearls and dressbarn sweater $1

i am particular fond of my facial expressions in these pictures,

it shows the mood i might have been--

this year i end my teaching day in a particularly rough way

and some days it makes me grumpy

it makes me grumpy because i do the best i can to help them learn,

i want my students to do they best they can to learn,

and sometimes it seems these two things aren't meshing well--

(i hope it doesn't sound like i am complaining)

i have started two sewing projects: can't wait to have the energy to finish them:)

weather wise i had the best both of worlds

--snow in morning, sun in afternoon--

that is my favorite utah weather pattern

i love pearls--thanks sis and grandma

black and goldish sweater--thrifted dressbarn--$1

pants--lane bryant--$49.50 but i think i got them on sale

boots--cozie steps--sam's club--$40

necklaces--gold/pearls gift from my sister,

knotted pearls vintage from Grandma Linda,

extra long strand i can't remember